The End of the Road - spoilers 15.20

[dizzojay]

I felt the need to write this to try to get some of this overwhelming emotion out of my system.  Did it help?

Uh, apparently not.



THE END OF THE ROAD

Genre: angst/tragedy
Rating: K+
Characters: Sam and Dean - written from Dean's POV
Spoilers: Warnings: Needless to say, huge spoilers for the finale!
Word Count: 300
Disclaimer: I don't own them




Well, this sucks.

All those years of hunting, and this is how it ends.  A freaking rebar through the back.

Still, I guess without Chuck driving our story, we’re vulnerable to accidents now and, well, this one’s a doozy.

But it’s my time.  I know that. I won’t have Sam endangering himself by trying to save me this time.  He can cry and plead all he likes.  I’m tired. 

I’m ready to drop the final curtain. 

I know that without me, there’s no hunt for Sam.  And I’m good with that; he can finally live the life I want him to.  I’m so proud of him; whatever he does now, I’ll always be proud of him.

But, it’s not all bad.  I get to die on my feet, not bleeding out in a ditch or rotting in some hospital bed.
 
From here, I can look Sam straight in the eye.  And make sure he knows I’m serious.

I feel like this damn thing is holding me together, it’s getting hard to breathe now…

I still have my machete in my hand.

That makes me feel like a Viking. 

Like I’m about to enter the Halls of Valhalla.

I guess a warrior couldn’t ask for much more than that.

So that’s cool.

I just need Sam to tell me it’s okay for me to leave.

Although, I’m not leaving him, not really. 

I’ll always be with him, in his heart.

But I need to know.

That he’ll be okay.

That Baby will be okay.

That Miracle will be okay.

I need to know.

That it’s okay.

Sam said yes.

It hurt him, but he said it.

He gave me.  Permission.

To go.

I love him.

I’m proud of him.

My baby brother.

I smile.

He smiles.

We touch.

One.

Last.

Time.

xxxxx

end

Comments

[zara-zee.livejournal.com]

Goddamn. You made me cry again. I'd just managed to stop too. 💔

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Sorry! I'm with you - it doesn't take much for me to start the waterworks either!

[borgmama1of5.livejournal.com]

Dammit crying again!

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Sorry!

[kiramaru7.livejournal.com]

*cries*

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

And now I'm crying again! That was so beautiful and exactly how Dean was thinking. Thanks for giving Dean that warrior ending, it makes me feel a bit better as you know I struggled with that moment. And this....so sad...

'He gave me. Permission.

To go.'

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Whoops, sorry! I'm glad you enjoyed it, even though it made you cry xx

[metallidean-grl.livejournal.com]

Aw hell. I'm crying again. I've been trying not to cry today, but it just isn't happening. Beautiful words, perfectly said.

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm with you at the moment; the waterworks are coming far too easily!