Thank you!

[dizzojay]

Thank you for all your lovely comments after my horrible experience yesterday.  I still feel terrible about the poor fox, but I really appreciate everyone's kindness.  I drove home from work tonight, and I was just so paranoid about small beasties running out on me, I don't think I went above 35 the whole time.  I was gripping the steering wheel so tightly, I had cramp in my hands when I got home!

At lunchtime I got the first real proper look at my car in daylight, and I can see I've got a cracked bumper, I couldn't help thinking to myself, 'tough shit - you deserve that.'  There's something a little bit comforting to think that poor little fox is getting his revenge on me from foxy heaven.

But as Mr D said to me tonight, if you hit him hard enough to crack your bumper, I think that's the proof you wanted that it would have been pretty instant.

But life has a funny way of reminding you to keep a sense of perspective ...

As I was driving to work this morning, the traffic slowed down into a little queue over a narrow humpback bridge that I have to drive over.  As I started inching forward, ahead of me I saw a couple of stationary cars with their hazard lights flashing, and I thought, 'ooh, there's been a prang!', then as I inched further forward and breeched the hump of the humpback bridge, I saw a motorcyclist lying in the road with one person crouching over him, and another standing over him directing the traffic around him and the two parked cars.  I sincerely hope the poor man is ok.

But it served well to remind me that, as horrible as what I did yesterday was, it could have been so much worse.

So this is me being thankful for all the good things in life.  And that includes you guys!

*hugs*

Comments

[amberdreams.livejournal.com]

Indeed, better a fox than a cyclist - or you. (((hugs)))

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[julchen11.livejournal.com]

As you said - it could have been worse. I'm glad you are ok, my dear. *hugs you Close*

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Thank you xx
*hugs back*

[ennisjackdean.livejournal.com]

I worried about how you'd be driving there again
but you did it. That anxiousness could stay with
you awhile. Please be patient with yourself Dizz
and know that concern measures the depth of YOU.

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

I will thank you, thankfully the nights are drawing out and getting lighter which is reassuring, but I will be extra careful because I couldn't bear to do this again.

[emmatheslayer.livejournal.com]

so sorry that happen to you hope your okay hugs and love i bet that was hard i am so sorry <3

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

Thank you, it was a nasty thing to happen. I really hope it's the last time I ever hit an animal, I couldn't bear to do it again.

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

*hugs and loves* I'm so sorry you're still feeling so awful about the wee fox, but as you say - it could have been much worse, and I for one am thankful it wasn't ♥

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

I feel so bloody silly, so much worse things happen, but I still can't stop thinking about the poor little bloke.

[milly-gal.livejournal.com]

It's not silly, you're just a good soul with a huge heart, that's a good thing ♥

[kinkthatwinked.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry I missed this. I've been offline for a few days.

I know how horrible it can be to hit an animal, it happened with me and a dog a few weeks ago on the way to work. I still can't drive down that road at the 40 mph I used to. But I hit it hard enough to make my vehicle leak radiator fluid and need towing to a repair shop, which as your husband says, is proof enough that the death was probably quick.

And yes, it could have been worse, a human could have been hurt, and I don't just mean another motorist. I'm glad you're alright. ((((hugs))))

[dizzojay.livejournal.com]

That's just horrible, I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but from what you said, I would be inclined to agree with your husband which is some small consolation.

And thank you for your concern, I really appreciate your kind words.
Take care xx

[sasha-dragon.livejournal.com]

It really could've been worse, I'm glad you're alright. *Hugs*

[katleept.livejournal.com]

It's been Friday, and I'm working on getting caught up on my friends list. I want to add my voice in with those who are so happy and relieved that YOU are okay, but I also want to say that I am so glad that you ARE one of us few who genuinely care about animal lives, regardless of rather they are our animals or wildlife. Living in South Alabama, I am surrounded by murderers hunters, so I can truly say that there are not and will never be enough of us. It's always refreshing to be reminded that I'm not the only one who values animal lives.

As for the biker, I'm sorry to read that, too, but it's also sadly common. My Father was a biker, and he always liked to say that he was part pig because of the pig ligament that was put into his bones to save his arm from a wreck that was caused by a woman racing around him only to stop right ahead of him at a red light. I am also reminded of a terrible wreck that happened right at my the interstate turn from my work place and the poor biker who was tragically killed along with a little girl, presumably his daughter.

There are just far, far too many humans who don't care who they hurt or even kill, rather it's other humans or poor animals. But again, I'm glad you're okay!!

As for as the poor fox, I know too well how much it hurts to accidentally take an innocent life, but perhaps the same thing that is helping me in getting over recently losing Henri, one of our babies, and other loved ones who are no longer with us will help you. Taking that poor fox from this world actually freed him/her. All the burdens of this life are over for that little one, and he/she is up there, chasing clouds and just frolicking gaily without a care in the world. He's free. He will live forever now. It is those of us left behind who are still toiling as we await our chance for freedom. But you and others certainly do make that wait a lot more tolerable. <3

[jj1564.livejournal.com]

I'm pleased you got back behind the wheel, even if you were driving more slowly than usual. And it does put things into perspective that it could've been worse - I hope the motorcyclist was okay - and to be thankful for all the good things in life. *hugs*