I love the points you made here. I hadn't thought about Dean dying standing up and how that is dignified. You are right in stating that had he been on the ground it would have been harder to film, for one, and then it would have been hard for Dean and Sam to look each other in the eyes. With them both standing they are able to look at each other and convey all the love they have for each other not only in words but in their eyes. They had such great communication with other without saying a word and with both standing they were also able to make that communication.
As you pointed out, the fact that despite being slammed into the rebar by the vampire, the brothers were still able to best all of them and come out victorious. Dean wasn't beaten to a pulp like he was when he became a demon where Metatron beat up his beautiful face. Or when the hellhounds ripped up his beautiful self. Dean was intact, as a fighter and hunter, along with Sam he was able to kill the monsters and save the children, which was always his mission in life. He goes out saving the innocent like he had countless times before this. That gives me comfort that he really did go out swinging, like he always wanted.
Dean was/is an exceptional character. So many fans wouldn't love him the way they do if he weren't. He had my heart from the beginning and will always have my heart, which is why having his death is so hard to accept. I had wanted more time for him with Sammy when they were at peace with the world and back to just fighting monsters. After seeing the timeline that hells_half_acre put together, its very possible they had anywhere from 3-6 months together in their routine before Dean died, so with that timeline, it does all sit better with me. I am far from being over this though. Even now I'm fighting back the tears because they just won't stop falling. So many people have been saying its hard to say goodbye to Dean. But I have to counter, I'll never say goodbye to him. Even though, yes, he has died, he will always be in our hearts......AND.....we have 15 seasons of Dean and Sam to watch as well as all the fanfic out there. (I have thousands of fics out there yet to read so that will keep me busy for a long time). So, in one way or another, Dean will always be in my life and he will ALWAYS be in my heart, regardless.
I still haven't been able to rewatch the episode. Still too tenderhearted to watch his death scene again. Maybe by weeks end I'll be better. This one will take awhile to recover, that I do know.
I am doing my best to ignore all the wank. Instead I am seeking out positives, those who loved him and want to celebrate Dean in all his glory instead of complain. I don't want or need that extra negativity in my life. My heart hurts enough the way it is.
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Date: 2020-11-23 08:59 pm (UTC)As you pointed out, the fact that despite being slammed into the rebar by the vampire, the brothers were still able to best all of them and come out victorious. Dean wasn't beaten to a pulp like he was when he became a demon where Metatron beat up his beautiful face. Or when the hellhounds ripped up his beautiful self. Dean was intact, as a fighter and hunter, along with Sam he was able to kill the monsters and save the children, which was always his mission in life. He goes out saving the innocent like he had countless times before this. That gives me comfort that he really did go out swinging, like he always wanted.
Dean was/is an exceptional character. So many fans wouldn't love him the way they do if he weren't. He had my heart from the beginning and will always have my heart, which is why having his death is so hard to accept. I had wanted more time for him with Sammy when they were at peace with the world and back to just fighting monsters. After seeing the timeline that hells_half_acre put together, its very possible they had anywhere from 3-6 months together in their routine before Dean died, so with that timeline, it does all sit better with me. I am far from being over this though. Even now I'm fighting back the tears because they just won't stop falling. So many people have been saying its hard to say goodbye to Dean. But I have to counter, I'll never say goodbye to him. Even though, yes, he has died, he will always be in our hearts......AND.....we have 15 seasons of Dean and Sam to watch as well as all the fanfic out there. (I have thousands of fics out there yet to read so that will keep me busy for a long time). So, in one way or another, Dean will always be in my life and he will ALWAYS be in my heart, regardless.
I still haven't been able to rewatch the episode. Still too tenderhearted to watch his death scene again. Maybe by weeks end I'll be better. This one will take awhile to recover, that I do know.
I am doing my best to ignore all the wank. Instead I am seeking out positives, those who loved him and want to celebrate Dean in all his glory instead of complain. I don't want or need that extra negativity in my life. My heart hurts enough the way it is.