I totally understand that. The 'first' of everything is always the hardest; the first Christmas, the first fathers' day without him etc.
I remember after my Grandad passed away in August 2009, being out shopping on my 42nd birthday and just breaking down in the middle of a coffee shop because it just dawned on me that this was my first birthday without any Grandparents. It was an odd and very sad realisation that just hit me like a train. So everything you're going through is completely normal and understandable. As you say, loss is one of those things we have to live with, but that doesn't make it any easier.
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Date: 2015-06-22 06:35 pm (UTC)I remember after my Grandad passed away in August 2009, being out shopping on my 42nd birthday and just breaking down in the middle of a coffee shop because it just dawned on me that this was my first birthday without any Grandparents. It was an odd and very sad realisation that just hit me like a train. So everything you're going through is completely normal and understandable. As you say, loss is one of those things we have to live with, but that doesn't make it any easier.
We're all behind you x