what a wonderful expression of your love for this show. i know we don't know each other, but i do follow your journal, which i love. i also follow jj. i too discovered Supernatural when i was at an emotionally raw time mentally and the show itself seemed to mend my heart and mind. i've just recently gotten into following other people who love the show, even though i've been watching for years now. i hope it inspires me to write, because i love to, but i thought i lost the knack for it long ago with my mental illness and all the meds that come with it. i know if i had the strong ties you have with so many people that i would just be INSPIRED to write. the reason i waited so long to join fandom online (my first was twitter) is because i have SO many friends that i'm close to that love Supernatural as well, and i always felt content with them. but then i remembered back to other fandoms (HP and LOTR) when i felt so CONNECTED. i think being connected like that to the Supernatural fandom, however, would be an even greater experience because i love the show, the characters, the cast, etc. so much more than i've ever loved anything else in any other fandom. so thank you for sharing that. i miss it.